Espionage:Within

Espionage - Within. from the s/t 7" on Omnicron Records. lyrics copyright Tony Smith.

how come I'm torn between the guilt of my sin? physical pleasure seldom within, i don't understand how it feels so good. I never loved, never could. still in my childhood, but scarred with pain, drenced with rage, emotional bloodstain. I try not to hurt, I try not to cry, all that I live, I live in a lie. every time i try to open up inside, thrown back into me, in the dark I hide. I know I'll never find it. i'll keep on looking for it: robbery, thievery, murder, and rape. feed me more, record it on tape. i'm numb on the outside, but breaking apart within, all of it affects me, can't believe I've always been this self-afflicting damaging freak, the same one I looked down upon just this last week. I'm spiritually dead, i hat emyself. I'm gonna charge before I break myself, see (what you want to discover about yourself and life in general). find (what you thirst for after years of pain, love and maturity), fight (society's conventional image of what life is and should be). mind (it is your and only yours to be used to enhance the lives of those around you).